Jaroldeen Edwards (see this blog for more information why she is my total hero) said this: We are all made of the same basic building blocks and we each build them into a formation that is our basic personality. But sometimes they get knocked down, and although we are building from the same basic materials, we won't always rebuild in exactly the same way.
Pregnancy has knocked my blocks down, and I haven't really been able to build them back up again. It is frustrating for me, but I guess it is a necessary part of life. We all have our blocks knocked over from time to time as we face challenges in our lives. The nice thing to remember, is that when we rebuild, the structure will probably be better than it was before we toppled. That is, if we choose to look at our trials as learning experiences and grow from them. I suppose if we don't, we could build a structure that is weaker than the original.
One thing I have learned through all of my pregnancies is the need to allow others to serve me. I love to serve others and help how I can, and I really am a bit prideful about being served. But pregnancy for me has knocked that block right down and caused me to put it at the bottom of the pile. It is a necessary lesson for me...we are here to help each other, and each of us goes through seasons as the servant and seasons as the one who needs service. If we don't allow another to serve us, we are essentially denying them blessings and opportunity for growth. And we are also denying ourselves opportunity for growth...the growth that can only come when your blocks have been knocked down and you must accept help from another in order to build them back up again.
I have been truly humbled by the people who have helped me. I've had a sister come by and mop and sweep and vacuum my house. Another sister dropped some yellow daisies by this morning to brighten my day, and they did. Many meals and concerned phone calls have happened my way, and many people have offered to help with Chloe. Tears come to my eyes when I think of how much people really do want to help, and it makes me happy to know that I am somehow blessing their lives as they bless mine.
I hope that when my blocks are rebuilt, that this time around I will be even more aware of others' needs and do what I can to help. I also hope that I will be a stronger and better person all around...but for now, I'm doing what I can with the mess of blocks that I have been given.