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Thursday, April 13, 2006

Sweet Bria

I know I've been neglecting my blog lately. I honestly feel like I have nothing to write about. Life is pretty blah right now...we have no idea what we'll be doing after Joel graduates, I am feeling better but by no means great, the kids are doing their normal kid stuff, and I just kind of feel like I've been hanging in limbo. Just nothing going on.

But I thought I should at least come up with something...

Today I've been going through piles of the kids' artwork/schoolwork. I keep the very best stuff (and it had better be REALLY good), scan the best and pretty good stuff into the computer so I can throw it away, and just throw away the rest. This is a project that has to be done in secret, because both kids, but especially Bria, get really upset if they find their masterpieces in the garbage.

"MOM! You can't throw this away! I made this at school!!!!"

And yes, they actually dig through the garbage. Okay, so they aren't really dumpster divers, but they always catch me if I just casually throw things away in the kitchen, because a) they see me do it, or b) they go to put something in the trash and see the evidence, pull it out, and call me on it.

So, anyway, back to today. I usually just throw it all in a basket by the computer...and if you have seen this basket recently, you will know that it overfloweth with artwork. Obviously, I haven't been feeling well enough to keep up with many aspects of my normal life, and going through artwork has definitely been something to be put on the back burner. Unfortunately, my health has not stopped my little artists from creating more and more and more...

Ummm...Lara? Are you ever going to get to the point?

Oh, sorry. Well, in going through the mountain today (and I still have quite a bit more), I found at least ten little pictures drawn for me by Bria. And they all say "I love you Mom." It actually brought tears to my eyes when I realized how many of these things she draws for me. She really hasn't gotten the best of me lately. I'm pretty much a hormonal mess anyway, but my crankiness peaks right around 3:00 in the afternoon. Just in time for my precious little kindergartener to come home. And I am so impatient with her many days. I'm starting to feel better, and so I have tried really hard to not be so cranky with her...



Sometimes being a mom is just hard. These tender little souls are put in our care, and (speaking for myself here...so if you're perfect at it, please don't feel you have to listen) so many times I just forget to remember that, because I get so caught up in how I feel, or all the many things I need to get done, or whatever. When, in reality, if I just step back and look at how great my kids are and how hard they are trying to make me happy, I would calm down.

2 comments :

  1. You are a rockin' mom, and kids don't get the best of us a LOt of the time. Just keep trying... that's my mantra...

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  2. I agree with Hillary! You are a rockin' Mom!! I, myself, have come to acknowledge my use of the Atonement better because of my many imperfections in raising you kids. I'm actually noting them more and more. Heavenly Father certainly knows what he is doing putting us into families to blunder around, I guess the gift to ask for is the gift of charity.

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