With the New Year always comes a desire to be a little better in many areas of my life. I don't know if it is because that's just how the New Year has always been viewed or if it's because I just finished eating like crap, staying up late and being cranky with the people I love. Either way, I always have the desire to make goals and resolutions right about now.
But guess what? I don't do well with a lot of goals. I have problems focusing on so many things at once. I end up doing an awesome job on all 8 of my resolutions for about a week, and then, one by one, they quickly fall off of my radar until I am left with one single goal. The last goal standing is usually something I do pretty well on for the year.
Last year I was pregnant and throwing up my guts at this time. I think my only goals were to get through the pregnancy without dying and to be more organized. I actually did both. Besides the fact that I am no longer pregnant and very much alive, I really feel like last year I finally got it together in many areas of my life. I could stand to do even better, but am happy with the momentum I still have. I am especially happy about the way that self-imposed organization has really helped me be less stressed. (That's probably obvious to most of you organized people...but I honestly didn't realize the connection in my life until recently.)
I've been thinking about how I'd like to improve for this year without making all the goals that I know I won't do. And I have finally come up with my ONE New Year's Resolution for 2007: To care more.
I have found that I get apathetic about things very easily when I am overwhelmed and it kind of helps me cope with the situation. Yet, it becomes something of a vicious cycle as the very apathy that destresses me causes me not to do things that would help alleviate my stress, thus heightening my original stress levels and increasing my apathy even more. So, in 2006, it all started with being pregnant and sick and overwhelmed. I had to stop caring about a lot of things in order to just survive. After having the baby and having to move the apathy and stress both continued and so here I am today vowing to care more.
If I care more about my husband I will support him better in his endeavors and not resent it when he is gone all the time. I will make it a point to spend more time with him rather than waiting for him to invite me on a date.
If I care more about my children I will help them immediately when they ask. I will not be annoyed because they want my attention while I am reading a book that is so much less important than they are. I will be more motivated to teach them. I will be less inclined to be frustrated with them. I will spend more quality time with them.
If I care more about my relationship with God I will make time to read my scriptures daily. I will do more than just read, I will study. I will be more sincere in my prayers. I will pray more often. I will look for more opportunities to serve.
If I care more about my calling I will put in necessary preparation. I will pray for my Mia Maids. I will develop relationships with them. I will have lessons that are conducive to the Spirit.
If I care more about myself I will not eat junk. I will find the time to exercise. I will not put my hair in a ponytail every day. I will take the time to look nice by putting on make up, nice clothes and (gasp) perfume. I will give myself time away from serving others to rejuvenate myself.
And the list goes on. Caring more about my home, about my job, about my parents and siblings, about my friends, about my finances and even about my sanity will help me make a lot of positive changes. Simply caring what my actions will do or will not do will hopefully cause me to make evaluations and changes that I would not otherwise make. So here's to a wonderful New Year filled with love, happiness and most importantly, care.