I also realized that as difficult as it is for me, I need to impose some sort of better schedule on myself. Nothing major, as I don't like having all of those restrictions, but enough to help my day go a little better. One of the things I wrote into my schedule is a creative hour. From 11:00-12:00 most mornings I will do something creative. Scrapbook. Paint. Read. Refinish some furniture. Go out and make photographs. Something. I am happier when I let myself do this.
So, today I scrapbooked. Decided to do last year's Easter pics which were really awful. Sophia spent the time either playing around my feet or on my lap trying to get any scrapbook item that was within her reach. Chloe spent the time on a chair next to me just watching and drawing on some scrap papers.
When I finished the layout, I went to the computer to scan it and upload it to 2Peas since it was created in response to a challenge there. Right as I sat down I received an email. I saw it was from Elisha Snow. I saw it said Congratulations...your layouts. I freaked out.
Because I know who Elisha is. She's an editor for Simple Scrapbooks. And it said layouts. Plural. They wanted more than one of my layouts for an upcoming special issue. And suddenly I was dancing around the house in the best mood I've been in for a while.
See, I've taken a break for the last year or so from submitting layouts. I just couldn't handle it...could barely scrapbook with my horrid pregnancy anyway. Then with the baby and the out of state move and the resulting stressful life here in Cedar, the scrapbook part of my life just kind of faded into the background. Hall of Fame got me scrapping again, and of course submitting.
But I've been feeling very mediocre. Not just as a scrapper, but in everything I attempt to do. My new camera has frustrated me more than anything as I realize I have a lot to learn about digital photography. So I have been feeling like a horrid photographer when I used to think I was pretty okay. I've been feeling like a mediocre voice teacher, mother, YW leader, housekeeper, and everything else that I attempt to do. Really being quite hard on myself. (Which, funny enough, is totally the topic of one of the layouts that got picked up.)
Somehow, receiving a call for some layouts just turned all of that around. Mostly just made me realize how silly I'm being. How much I just need to relax and keep doing what I'm doing. Perhaps I need to step it all up a notch, but mostly I'm on the right track. I've realized I'm just tired and overwhelmed. And I need to stop eating like crap.
So thank you for all of your help on the last post. You are a very wise internet.
And I am doing okay.