I don't remember if it was this past New Year, or New Year 2006, but Ali Edwards made a big deal out of changing her wording from "Resolutions" to "Intentions." Of course, scrapbookers everywhere went absolutely ga-ga over the idea, because everyone loves her so much. (She's a big celeb in the scrapping world, for my friends who either don't scrapbook or just plain don't really care about scrapbook celebrities.)
Personally, I hated the idea. I mean, don't get me wrong, Ali E. is a very inspiring person and I like her just as much as the next scrapper. But the semantics just didn't work for me.
Resolve. Now that is a good word. It speaks of determination. A goal that you will achieve no matter what obstacle is placed before you.
Intend. Also a great word, but not one I would label with the word determination. Desire, yes. Determination? Not quite.
I mean, I already intend to be perfect. I don't really need to write down all my intentions as goals. I am bursting with good intentions. Like right now, I intend to clean my kitchen, scrapbook, be a loving and patient mother, vacuum the house, read to Chloe, bathe the baby, upload some pictures to be printed, read my scriptures, exercise, eat right, work on my canvases for the girls' room and another hundred different little things. I also intend to someday write a book, win Hall of Fame, become an amazing photographer, knit myself a sweater and backpack Europe. I have not actually resolved to do any of them, unfortunately.
Due to this lack of resolve, most of my intentions probably won't actually happen. I fully admit how easily sidetracked I am, patience isn't a virtue I claim to have, and I am sitting here blogging about it instead of getting up and making all of those intentions a reality.
I often wonder how I can make the change from intention to resolution. Because when I actually resolve to do something, I can do it. I will do it. Nothing will stop me from doing it. I just don't resolve as often as I probably should. Heck, even my New Year's Resolution this year was a little weefy...mostly because I haven't been in a resolved mindset since Sophia was born. More like a just survive the day kind of mindset.
Which is okay...I just think I'm ready to really resolve. But, I don't know how. Because I am amazing and can achieve very lofty goals, if only in my mind. The problem is, I am out of practice in getting those goals and intentions down on real paper and really working on them.
So, internet, what do you do? Give me some suggestions on how I can make this essential paradigm shift. I want to come back to this post later today with lots of ideas. Lots of experiences. Please, please, please add yours.
I intend to get at least 15 helpful comments on this post.
And I resolve to go do the dishes.