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Wednesday, September 26, 2007

You don't know what you've got till it's gone

There is an excellent reason that I have never been a morning person: For the majority of my adult life I have been an insomniac. Not because I want to be. Just because I am. Even as a teenager I remember lying awake and watching the minutes tick by on the clock beside my bed. Consequently, I have learned to use the wee hours of the night to be productive, or at least to read a good book.

Several months ago, I went and had my hormones tested. They found several things to fix and started me on a regimen of herbs and bio-identical progesterone, among other things. And almost immediately I was sleeping. Like, I could actually fall asleep a few minutes after my head hit the pillow, instead of listening to my husband sleep and being jealous that he actually could.

Suddenly, getting up early wasn't so difficult anymore. I don't think I'll ever be one of those people that just bounces out of bed at 5:00 am, but I could at least be nice and pleasant at 7:00. I also found myself wanting to go to bed earlier, and not staying up reading or doing dishes or surfing the internet until past midnight.

Unfortunately, I have become an insmoniac again the last few days. The other night I found myself lying awake, willing myself to just fall asleep, while music from Fiddler on the Roof played over and over in my mind. It happened again last night, and I really hope that's it.

I think I was actually taking my newfound sleep for granted. I didn't realize what a major change happened in me. Besides sleeping, I have just plain been nicer to be around. (And I definitely mean that sometimes I don't like being around myself, and the last few months it hasn't been so bad.) But yesterday and today, I have been a total crank. I have felt horrible. And I just can't believe that I have felt like this for so long. Wow. And I know I did, too, because that's the thing that finally made me go get my hormones checked.

I'm thinking it's time to get a job as a napper.

Oh wait, I already have that job. Better start doing it.


  1. I go in spurts too.. especially when I have a lot on my mind.. like recently.. WIDE AWAKE!! BAM!!!

    I hope you get that sleep back!!! It's so annoying!!!

  2. I am definitely not a morning person either. After having children, I liked being up late at night, just to have quiet time. . . all by myself!!

    But I have been trying to go to bed earlier, and like you I have enjoyed mornings. Something very new for me. Early mornings for me though is 8.

    We used to get up at 10 around here, but I have been getting Isaac to bed earlier and waking him up earlier. I hear the word of wisdom is good for us. . . and something about early to bed and early to rise :) Thought I should try it out!

  3. I'm so with you on the insomnia. Mine has been better since Will was born until a few weeks ago. I asked my new doctor about it the other day and she suggested I take Benadryl. Benadryl? (Insert confused look here). Uh, no thanks. Maybe I should get my hormones checked.

    Here's hoping for a good night's sleep.

  4. I have had periods of insomnia myself, and I agree, it's horrible. It is so hard to be pleasant when you're tired. I've gotten used to having little sleep as my little one still gets up about 4 times a night.... still, Misty with sleep vs. Misty w/o sleep. Guess who's more kind??

    Here's hoping with you kid! Sweet dreams.

  5. Hope you're asleep right now. :)

  6. I'm definitely a better napper than nigh time sleeper. Hope you're getting some rest!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  7. I think HIllary's comments are the funniest!! I hope you take her advice!! Hope you are sleeping right now, heehee

  8. I got in the habit of staying up late because everyone was asleep and I could have "me" time. Now I just accept the fact that "me" time doesn't exist unless by some miracle all the kids nap at the same time. I hope you are getting back to better sleep SOON!

  9. Hope that you can start sleeping well again soon! It's so hard to be the mom and the wife and the teacher and the everything else you do when you're exhausted!