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Wednesday, June 25, 2008

A big huge freaking sigh

I don't like to complain. I try very hard to keep my chin up and look at the positives in all people and situations. I'm sorry that I've been complaining a bit more lately. I noticed as I do my status updates on Facebook that I rarely have anything positive to say these days. I kind of feel like everything is falling apart around me, actually.

1. My grandma, the one who lost her home to the California fires last year, passed away yesterday. She is actually my grandpa's second wife, but had been married to him since long before I was born and was just as much a grandparent to me as my biological grandparents. She was my last grandparent alive. I'll be going to her funeral this Saturday, which means cancelling my lessons at Tuacahn on Friday and driving up to Salt Lake where my brother and I will fly out. This also means I miss the one day of Girl's Camp I was supposed to go to (which honestly I'm not too sad about) and just start my little 4th of July jaunt up north a lot earlier.

2. Joel still hasn't heard from the blasted University. Enough said.

3. My fancy schmancy digital piano broke last night. We can't figure out what on earth is wrong with it, but the power simply doesn't come on when you push the power button. I am, understandably, very upset by this. Chloe can't practice her piano, I can't teach lessons (thank goodness I have none this summer from my home), and most importantly, I can't practice my song for the above mentioned funeral.

4. Joel's car is in the shop for a funny noise. Turns out it's something pretty major and we're out 600 bucks to fix it.

So, there you have it. All my frustrations for the day, blogged.

Like I said, I am having a very hard time staying positive lately. And for some reason, my piano dying is the thing that has sent me to the end of my rope. So forgive me my rant, and I'll try to come back tomorrow (my 9th wedding anniversary!) with a better attitude about life.

15 comments :

  1. Ohhhhh no! I wish there were something I could say or do to help. I'll be thinking of you - travel safe - and hang in there.

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  2. So sorry Lara. I think I detest the phrase when it rains it pours. . . because it always comes true! Good luck!

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  3. (((((HUGS))))) I'm so sorry about your grandma -- and everything else. I think you are due for a big upswing soon. :)

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  4. That's a lot to deal with right now. My car is in the shop for the 20th time since we bought it used. No air conditioning in the Summer is a real bummer. At least we are not still in Dallas! I haven't blogged for a while because I seem to be in a life funk. Things will turn around. The always seem to do just that. I hope things look up for you real soon.

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  5. I'm so sorry about your Grandma and everything else! You deserve some major complain time. That's what's so great about your blog, you always keep it real.

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  6. If you ever want to borrow my piano you are more than welcome to it. Good luck this week. Keep smiling or try to.

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  7. Lara, I am so sorry to hear about your Grandma. I know you loved her so much. I think it's OK to not feel completely positive/glass half full all the time. I'm feeling down about things lately too. Just keep moving forward. That's all you gotta do.

    Love you!

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  8. Neal A. Maxwell gave a devotional at BYU in 1999 with this quote in it:

    "...you must not mistake passing local cloud cover for general darkness..."

    I love this - sometimes, when I'm having a very stormy day (or week, or month, or even year), I remind myself of this - it's just passing cloud cover.

    I'm so sorry about your grandma. Mine passed away three summers ago, and I still miss her and cry sometimes.

    Here's the link to that talk, in case you want to read the whole thing :)

    http://speeches.byu.edu/reader/reader.php?id=3590

    And, thanks for joining my 21-day challenge - I'm going to need the support, too!

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  9. Well... dang it... (I censored my mouth just for you).... hang in there. Thinking of you, because I know there isn't a lot that I can say to make things better right now.

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  10. Hi Lara. It seems we have many things in common, the job woes especially. The biggest comfort I have found is knowing that so far in my life, I have always tried to do what Heavenly Father has asked me to do. I know that a lifetime of following Him will lead me to where I am supposed to be in the end. I also know that it is not an easy path, in fact many times it seems like the hardest path. As long as I continue to be wise in making financial purchases, and work hard in the many "hats" I wear, and most of all pay a full tithing, I believe that in the end all things will work out financially for me and I will always have what I need. I know you live your life following the right path, and you can expect the same for you. Love, Amanda

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  11. Lara, Happy Anniversary! Today (the 26th) is my anniversary too...what a small world. I'm just jealous that you get to actually spend yours with your husband. Hang in the sweetie, it will get better!
    Steffani

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  12. I know how it feels to have everything around you fall apart...all at the same time. Why does it happen that way? I am so sorry about your grandma, but am grateful that you know about the eternities:) I'm sure you'll play AMAZING at her funeral. Please look us up when you're here. We'll play... and I'll give you a big fat hug! Hope your anniversary brightens your spirits and that you have an amazing day!

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  13. That sucks!!!! I am so sorry lara! :(

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  14. I'm sorry about your grandma. It sounds like you had a rough day. And, there's nothing to forgive. It's good to get things out once and a while.

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  15. So sorry to hear about your Granma...I hope the funeral goes well and that you survive. :)

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