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Friday, November 14, 2008

Seriously, so blind

In college, I rarely bothered with my glasses, mainly because they were extremely hideous and also because they were broken. I finally replaced them just before my mission, but up till then I only wore them if I was desperate and never, ever in public.

Each night, after I took my contacts out at the vanity in the hall, I would blindly come into my bedroom and hang my clothes up or whatever while having a conversation with my roommate, who was usually on her bed reading. Without fail, during this time I would hear her snickering to herself, but since I couldn't actually see her face, I wasn't sure if I was hearing things or if I was just missing the joke.

Until that one night when I didn't take out my contacts, but she thought I did. While I was talking to her, I noticed that she was pulling her face into crazy contortions. I asked her what she was doing, and she innocently said "Oh, nothing," accompanied by her familiar little giggle. I immediately called her on the face making and she finally admitted that she got her kicks by sticking her tongue out at me every night and was always amused by the fact that I couldn't see, even five feet away from her. Funny indeed. She probably still did it even after she was caught...who am I to deny her small pleasures?

That's truly how blind I am, people. If I took my glasses off right now as I am typing this, I couldn't read a darn thing on the screen until my nose was literally touching it. Last night, while at an OSU orchestra concert with Joel, I took off my glasses to clean them off for a second and was astounded at what the stage looked like uncorrected. Just a bunch of circles, like out of focus Christmas lights. And two of them in the middle were bouncing around in time to the music. Some of them on the left were moving up and down. Turns out these were the conductor's hands and the violinists arms. Crazy stuff. I watched an entire movement like this until I felt like I might throw up if I didn't put my specs back on.

So, today, I am thankful that I live in 2008 and that my glasses correct my vision just fine. I can even wear my contacts if I feel like looking pretty, and nobody has to know that I am blind. If I lived a hundred years ago, it is doubtful that I would be able to see well at all. My vision would most likely be worse because nobody would have known how badly it was deteriorating when I was young, and they wouldn't have taken the steps they did to fix it.

If I lived in biblical times, it would have taken a miracle for me to see. I could have even been one of the blind people that Jesus healed.

And nowadays? I could get Lasik if I were rich enough. That would be the modern day miracle to heal my blindness.

But until I have some windfall and the courage to go under the laser, I am just very grateful for my cool red glasses.

I'd be more lost without them than I am my camera!

24 comments :

  1. I'm just like you! It sounds like our vision is about the same. I wish I could get lasik too. I'm totally with you!

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  2. LOL! My husband says if I was born hundreds of years ago, if I saw a lion, I'd be saying, "Heeeeere, kitty, kitty."

    I got Lasik back in 2002 (when economic times weren't so bad). It was one of the best things I ever did. If you get the chance to do it - it's SOOOOO worth it!

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  3. Our eyes are so important. I must say you do look great in glasses and I bet you are pretty grateful for them.

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  4. From one blind girl, to another, I too am thankful for modern day optometry. I also sport a pair of rockin' red glasses, mine are cat eye glasses -- because I am that silly!

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  5. DH's eyes were that bad until he got Lasik--an amazing investment. He's a software engineer, so he sorta has to see the screen to make a living, and they were gradually getting worse. Changed his life. I say save up and do it!

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  6. Jason's vision is extremely bad, too. In fact, he looked into getting Lasik last fall, and they told him he wasn't even a candidate. Because his eyes are so bad, they would have to shave too much of his eyes. They told him his only alternative is to get contacts surgically inserted into his cornea, but that needs updating every few years. So, needless to say, he has opted to keep his gas permeables and being blind for the rest of his life ... even with glasses on! Sad.

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  7. I am very grateful for my glasses too!! I don't think that I am as blind as you are, but blind none the less. I definitely cannot function without my glasses. The world would be a blurrrrr.

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  8. I know that you and I share that same horrible level of blindness--and so it's nice to know you share that feeling of vulnerability that comes when you don't have glasses or contacts on! I've realized how much of an impairment this would be if I lived only a few decades earlier. It sure makes me grateful, too....

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  9. And your glasses are so funky/cool. I love them. I'm with you on the Lasik - even if I had the fundage right now, I would be way too scared to actually do it.

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  10. Joyce: My glasses are cat eyes with purple and orange stripes on the top. :) And very, very thick lenses inside.

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  11. I'm afraid of going completely blind with Lasik (well, and then there's the huge money issue). Maybe one day I'll also get brave and try it. The contact thing doesn't seem to work for me anymore (they're way too uncomfortable), but I just fake it and just take my glasses off when I'm having a picture taken. Of course, this leads to people telling me I don't look like myself in pictures. I think that's sort of funny.

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  12. Andrea: I have trouble with my contacts since having kids. Even though I get a new pair every time pregnancy did something to my eyes. I have to wear gas perms, and they are just uncomfortable after a few hours. Maybe I just need to wear them more often and see if I can get re-used to them. Who knows?

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  13. Food for thought... Did you know that they make camera's where one could change the looking hole (for lack of words) and if you did not want to wear your glasses or contacts you could have your prescription right in your camera.

    Very cool.

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  14. Before Mark got Lasik, I used to hide his glasses in the morning so that he couldn't go to work! It was cruel, I know. But a girls got to do what she can to spend time with ther hubby!!

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  15. Lara, you and me both, you and me both! My eyes are TERRIBLE! And they only get worse.

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  16. Well I used to want glasses really bad when I was little. I guess I better be glad I have great eyesight....

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  17. scray how much we have in common!!!!

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  18. I was also blind since 2nd grade. I think my vision was like 20/500 or something. 6 years ago I had LASIK done and it was the best decision I have ever made in my life. Even now sometimes I will get teary-eyed when I can see something with contacts or glasses.

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  19. Sounds like I am as blind as you!! I would also love to get Lasik but I have 3 children to feed!

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  20. I am the same as you. I have seriously thought about Lasik but am so freaked out by it that I may just live with contacts for the rest of my life. Hate myself in glasses though, they make my eyes look like tiny little bb's. Thank goodness for contacts! But how lucky we are to have those.

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  21. I am so sorry you got our genetics, love you! Oh well, you had to get one weakness, my sweet little daughter!

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  22. My DH eyes are that bad... they said that lasik won't work on him. Which sucks for us since he needs his eyes to make his freaking living...

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  23. Great insights ! ( pun intended)

    I am grateful for my reading glasses...I am an avid reader and they are my constant ace in the whole for everything and when I can't locate them, I go nuts until I find them !

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  24. Mom was telling me about this post today since I have been computer-free all weekend. (house full of sick kids)

    I didn't know you were that blind.

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