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Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Priorities

This afternoon, I glanced at the clock and realized that Bria and Chloe weren't home from school yet. I admit, they dilly-dally most of the time and I always expect them to be late, but they were already 20 minutes late this afternoon, and I had wanted to go run some errands with them as soon as they got home.

So, I went outside and looked at the school (we live just a block away) and saw no sign of them, so I figured I'd just drive the car up and save them the walk. Once I got there, there was still no sign of them, and Bria's scooter was still in the bike rack. Sophia and I decided to go in and look for them.

They were nowhere to be found.

Funny that my friend Deb just blogged about this today, because I found myself getting more and more panicky. I was trying to hold it together so I didn't scare Sophie, but she could tell something was up with me. I had the office page the kids, they didn't show up. I had a few of my friends who were still picking up their own kids looking for them and they couldn't find them either. None of the teachers had seen them. The knot in my stomach was getting bigger and bigger.

Finally, I decided I'd better go back home to see if they had somehow flown under all the radar and gone home without knowing I was looking for them. My anxiety got worse as I saw that Bria's scooter was still in the bike rack. As soon as I got in the car, I started bawling and Sophia asked me what was wrong. I told her that I couldn't find the girls, and I didn't know where they were and I was scared.

Then Sophia said, "It's otay, Mommy. Maybe girls home."

And they were. They said they'd only been in the house for about 2 minutes (which was at this point 40 minutes after school was out) and I still can't get a straight answer from them as to what exactly took them so long or where they were while everyone was searching the school.

Sometimes it takes an experience like this to realize just how important my children are to me. I would die, absolutely die, if I lost them. Even though the day-to-day craziness is often more than I can take, I'll happily take it.

And the day-to-day craziness is particularly crazy right now. Not to mention all of the decision-related trauma I have been putting myself through. I just don't think I can handle regular blogging for a little while, so I hope you'll forgive me.

Maybe I'll find time to post Easter pictures. We'll see, but there's still Easter grass in my carpet--no matter how much I clean it up, it just keeps multiplying. I also have a few things already set to post for my blog's birthday week, which is next week, so keep an eye out for that.

And maybe after my little old blog is a year older, I'll be ready to actually write in it.

41 comments :

  1. My two youngest went missing for over an two hours one day. It was horrible. I had to call the police. I NEVER want to make a call like that again. I'm glad you girls were home safe. It is so scary.

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  2. I can only imagine the fear, not being a parent myself.

    I had that happen with my husband though. He was an armored truck driver, and so it was a pretty dangerous job.

    He would check in with me peridically throughtout the day, so that I knew he was OK.

    There was one day when I literally could not get ahold of him for 9 hours. I was freaking out!! Apparently, one of the guys from corporate was tagging along, so he couldn't use his cell phone. Very scary.

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  3. I've had scary moments like that. Isn't it wonderful when they don't turn out as bad as they could have?!

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  4. i'm so glad this story had a happy ending! i could feel the anxiety grow as i read, and i'm not even their mother.

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  5. That is so scary. I've had one or two panicky moments like that before.

    And I understand about the blog thing. With Easter, family in town, birthdays, etc, I'm not doing well in the blogosphere. I hope you can get some answers to your questions, and that hopefully you will have time to relax too!

    (And I still hope to see you on Saturday at 1:30) :)

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  6. I'd be a mess.
    and you already started-out not so great.
    You deserved a little break down.
    wtg.

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  7. I don't even want to begin to understand the feelings you must have been experiencing. I do hope you get a clear answer from them later about where they were and why. *hugs*

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  8. I HATE that feeling. I've had several experiences where I've had to wonder what happened to my kids. Even when it's only 5 minutes or so, it freaks me out.

    I'm glad everyone's ok.

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  9. That is so scary. I would have been screaming and calling 911 after 2 seconds. One day I pulled up to the school to pick up my daughter and they called her name several times and I pulled up waiting for her and didn't see her. Then they called her again and she finally heard them and came over. I was panicking and mine was only about a minute or so.
    I am so glad they are ok. :)

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  10. Oh, Lara! I am so glad you had to go through this too. It's heart wrenching to say the least. Hugs.

    Hope all is soon as you need it to be. I'll miss your regular blog posts, but understand the need for a break.

    Hang in there. I'll be thinking of you.

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  11. Oh man. There have been some near kidnappings at two of the schools in my neighborhood.
    What a horrible thing to go through. I hope you get some answers soon.

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  12. Oh my Lara!! I would have Died!! Did she ever explain why her scooter was still in the rack? It scares me so bad. Jonathan is starting school this year and there are few kids that are older than him in my culdesac that are willing to walk with him so i dont have to wake the girls up to get him toschool on time but i dont know if im ready for that... Glad they were safe!! Take care

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  13. Something like that happened to me with Kelley at church a few months ago and it is not fun. I can't imagine what parents go through who actually loose a child in one way or another. I have noticed your absence in blog world, but I understand ;) Good luck with everything!

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  14. Oh, I am SOOOO glad the girls were at home!! I'm sorry your life is chaotic right now; I'll be praying for you!

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  15. I'm so glad all was well. That is a terrifying thing for a Mama.

    And you made me feel MUCH better about the Easter grass that's still firmly planted in my own carpet. Whew! It isn't just me!

    Good luck with all the decision making. You'll choose the best of the options I'm sure.

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  16. One of my boys went missing for almost two hours once. I was 7 months pregnant, running all over the neighborhood. The police had me search along the creek, etc. It was horrible, and it doesn't take long for the panic to hit.

    Sorry you got stressed!

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  17. It makes me want to cry for you. Have had that happen when you
    were growing up! All I could do was pray!

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  18. You still have Easter grass? CLEARLY you're not raking!

    Kidding.

    Glad everything turned out okay.

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  19. Wow, that would be SO scary. I'm a total worry wart so I don't know if I would be able to stay calm as long as you did. I'm glad the girls are home and safe!

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  20. Oh Lara, my heart stopped at the first sentence of them not being home yet...

    My gratitude today was for them coming home safe as I felt very uneasy today all of a sudden. I had to tell Charlie that something felt wrong.

    I'm so glad they are back home safe with you. I know the feeling as Ian has forgotten to get on the bus a few times and I have had to pound on the bus to stop so I can ask him to call the school to start finding him until I get there.

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  21. That is so scary. I could just picture myself freaking out too. I'm so glad they were ok.

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  22. I too have gone through that. It is the WORST feeling in the whole world. I am glad that everything was ok and that you found them. Hang in there with everything that is going on and keep smiling.

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  23. Ugh. I think we've all been there a few times. It is the most horrid feeling there is.

    Good luck with real, non-virtual life. Take all the time you need. We're not going anywhere ...

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  24. Those are what keep us up at night. That was intense. Glad it's over.

    Blogging has been feeling a little draggy lately. It has to be the spring is in the air thing. Itching to get out right? Take care.

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  25. I have nightmares about this. I just want to be a mother hen and keep them under my wing f.o.r.e.v.e.r. I am really going to have a hard time when my oldest goes to Kindergarten, at least with pre-scool I have some control. Take a bloggin break. I do all the time. Then sometimes I get on a roll and blog a lot. I know when I am stressed, blogging like I am not can be more stressful!

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  26. Oy vey! There is nothing in the world that is worse than a missing child. I'm so glad they were fine. Please know that your family in in my thoughts and prayers as you are seeking direction for your life from the Lord. I hope you're not away from blogging for too long; your blogs are always a highlight of my day.

    P.S. Skip the Easter grass next year. I forgot to buy it this year and was panicked that the kids would flip and the baskets would look dumb, etc. And no one even noticed. Except me. And the vaccuum cleaner.

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  27. I totally get it. We lost TJ once when he was three, and found him around the block and half way down the street, just mosying around.
    I'm trying to ease back on blogging, too.
    We'll miss you, but I totally understand.

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  28. It's the worst feeling ever. Every time. You try to stay calm, not overreact, but like you said, if one of them was actually gone it would be devastating. Glad you found them and hopefully you'll set up a definite report to you by a certain time every day after school plan.

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  29. You poor thing, that is so scary. I'm so glad everything is okay. I had a moment like that too, it was just a moment but my insides dropped to my feet, It's awful.
    Again, I'm so glad all is well.

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  30. There is nothing more terrifying than thinking you've lost your kids...But, it does remind us to slow down and kiss them a little more.

    Happy decision-making. We're praying for you guys!

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  31. It kind of makes you miss the "good ol' days" where you sent your kids out to play, had no idea where they went, but knew they'd be home by dinner. But, I know the panic you speak of. We lost Clark at a mall when he was two and I was freaked out. He was strapped in his stroller and I turned around and he was gone. It all turned out okay, but man, those moments are paralyzing.

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  32. We were once in a store in California. There was a space rocket in the back for little kids to climb around in. I stood at one end and Joe at the other while our three young boys played. After a little while we called them out of there. One didn't come out. We looked in all the windows. No boy. We sent the eldest child back in to find him. No boy. We grabbed the 2 remaining children and searched the store. No boy. Beginning to panic we went out into the mall, Joe going one way and I going another calling and looking for him. By this time I was beginning to have trouble breathing! A kiosk vender asked if I was looking for a little boy. When I said yes she pointed her finger at a nearby store and there he was! I think the kid is lucky I didn't hurt any internal organs because I hugged and squeezed him so hard! LOL To this day we have no idea how he could have gotten out of the rocket without either of us noticing.

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  33. I'm so sorry you had to go through that worry and panic. So glad your girls came home safely, although I hope you'll be able to get a straight answer out of them eventually.

    I wish you all the best with your decisions—we'll be waiting for you in this space when you get back.

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  34. When Sam (who has high-functioning autism) was 2 years old, he went missing at my in-law's house. We spent an hour looking for him, and we were only 2 blocks from State Street in Orem. I don't think I've ever been more terrified. Because of his autism, he didn't respond when we called his name, so it took longer to find him. Luckily he went in the opposite direction of State Street. I think I earned my first white hairs that day.

    Hugs to you, and I'm so sorry that life is crazy. I know that you'll make the right decision - and my prayers are with you.

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  35. That is the WORST feeling. It takes me 30 seconds before I panic. I hope you are doing well. Take whatever time you need!

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  36. There is no fear like that gripping fear of worry about your child. I'm glad your sweet ones were OK.

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  37. OH MY HECK! That would freak the heck out of me!

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  38. Ugh, I can't imagine. I'm so glad they were okay.

    And I totally hear you about needing to step back from blogging. I haven't been making the rounds nearly as much, and I miss it, but I'm prioritizing. Something has to give, right?

    You're a great mom. :)

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  39. Heather is right. Something has to take a backseat. If you are choosing priorities, blogging isn't one of them.

    I am so glad that your kids were OK. That overwhelming feeling of dread when you can't find them is horrible.

    -Francesca

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  40. I'm glad they were ok. That is the WORST feeling in the world.

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  41. So scary. I'm glad it turned out okay. So I just went to your SUU page and now I know where you are. I wish we were there. My parents are down there. When did you graduate, I was in the music department as a music minor, wonder if we knew each other?

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