I have this dream of becoming that mom. You know the one. She is always calm. She has her to-do list organized and never deviates from it. Sure, she's busy, but she never gets harried or overwhelmed with all she has to do. She exercises daily, she cooks gourmet meals three times a day, plus snacks. Her home is always in perfect order. She serves on the PTA board, helps in all of her children's classrooms twice a week and still manages to handle her part-time job with finesse. And so on and so forth ad nauseum.
It's never gonna happen, people. I am not that mom. And I am starting to realize that I never will be. And that's okay. Because I am the mom that my children need most.
Except, I really wish I could keep it together just a little bit better. Today, I am particularly overwhelmed with my life. I have too many projects going on and it's always difficult to know where to start. I have a very demanding two-year old. Walking through my living room is akin to walking through a mine field. I've done the dishes so many times that I've lost track, but it doesn't seem to be making any difference. The laundry we won't even discuss. It isn't helping that this week I had the worst case of PMS I've had in a long time. The kind where every creature on this earth has offended me, and I have most definitely made it known. And cried a lot. And yelled a lot. And then, today, I have cramps that are so painful I almost threw up and I have a migraine that refuses to be touched with medication.
So, naturally, I fell apart for the twentieth time this week.
Here I thought that getting rid of voice lessons was going to make my life so much easier. What was I thinking? Because it doesn't really matter what it is--there's always something.
The something that is currently making me insane is move preparation. Moving across the country is going to kill me off. I can't even accomplish one simple daily project to prepare for the move. I'm going to look for a house in Michigan in a week and I'm freaking out about that. None of the moving companies I've called for estimates are getting back to me and I'm annoyed because I need to know right now how much everything is going to cost. Sure, we've moved smoothly from Utah to Arizona and back, but one state away totally doesn't count. Not even remotely the same.
Basically, I need to try and save falling apart for just before bedtime, so I can at least accomplish something during the day.
However, I did finish editing my brother's wedding. One big project off the plate and onto the next. If you care to see some of my favorites click here. (Just photos of bride and groom.)