Today I start teaching voice lessons again.
On the one hand, I really do love to teach voice lessons. Nothing is quite like guiding a student to figure out how to use her voice properly. It is so exciting to see great progress and to know that I was a part in helping unlock the door to singing beautifully. It energizes me.
On the other hand, teaching voice lessons tends to detract from the more important things in my life. Like my children. The three years I spent in Cedar City, trying to be a mother and run a studio at home, at SUU and at Tuacahn was really exhausting and I know my children suffered for it. My home definitely suffered for it, and lots of other things did, too. It was just difficult for me to find a balance.
I learned a lot these last three years, and I really hope that I can apply those things now, so that my priorities and energies are much more in line than they have been in the past. Of course, at this point, I only have one student, so it shouldn't be too difficult. But I will have more and I will need to keep things checked.
I have really loved the last few weeks. Not having moving looming on the horizon, and not having to be anything other than a mother, a wife and a homemaker has been wonderful. My house is unusually clean. I spend more quality time with my children. They actually get an after school snack, help with their homework and practicing, and a listening ear--all from their mother!
I tried before. But, being pulled in so many different directions, I don't feel like I ever truly succeeded. I knew what needed to be done, but failed so many times in the execution. And by simply not doing something I knew I should do, I started to become something I didn't really want to be.
I'm hoping to reverse that process. Even if I have to take on more vocal students than I really want to, I'm not going to let that get in the way of the things that matter most.
Not only will I become an excerciser, but I will be the mother I know I need to be, first and foremost.