I tend to live my life on a wing and a prayer. While it's pretty conducive to creativity and all of that, it isn't the greatest way to live. I am a self-proclaimed schedule hater, and prefer to just do everything I need to do on a whim. This includes things like grocery shopping (I never really know what we need and tend to overspend), packing for vacation (I always wait till the very last minute and inevitably forget something), housework (some things are always done, but some things are horribly neglected--out of sight, out of mind), practicing (it usually takes a maestro-staged coup for me to practice in any sort of an organized manner), and lesson-planning (my YW lessons are almost always "prepared" late Saturday night, and sometimes even during Sacrament meeting).
I've been thinking an awful lot about preparation this morning, mostly since I've only been awake for 2 hours and my lack of it is already painfully obvious. Sophia came down to our bedroom this morning at 8:11 wanting breakfast. Four minutes before the girls' school started. Joel and I had both forgotten to set our alarms the night before. Not so surprising for me, but Joel has never once failed to make sure his alarm is set in our entire marriage.
Bria was angry with us and demanded that I buy her her own alarm so she could get up even when we forget. (And I will buy her one.) She despises being late, so her first reaction when Joel got the girls up was to sit on the floor and cry that she would miss art. And be angry at her parents.
After I checked the girls into school 15 minutes late, I came back home and finished getting Sophie ready for preschool. I spent an extra 10 minutes or so trying to find a warm coat for her, as the weather has taken a turn for the very, very cold. And then another several minutes looking for a hat and some mittens. Needless to say, we were late to preschool, too, even though we could have avoided that had I thought about the weather last night.
On a whim, I grabbed my camera on the way out of the door so I could stop and take some autumn pictures after I dropped her off. Well, I parked the car near some particularly beautiful trees, got out and turned on my camera. Instead of taking some beautiful pictures, I sighed because the screen was blinking at me to change the battery pack. Even had I thought to bring my entire camera bag with me, it wouldn't have made a difference because I happened to know for a fact that my other battery was also dead. Because I only ever charge them when my camera tells me to.
So, here I am back at home, waiting for my battery to charge and blogging away about my lack of preparation this morning, and in life in general. To my credit, I have actually been much better about housekeeping and even grocery shopping this last couple months. Like, so much better, that I do laundry, dishes and general tidying every morning before I sit down to blog, and the house is usually clean when we go to bed at night. And Joel and I have been menu-planning. Which is one of the things that has always made shopping difficult for me, since he cooks and I shop. We just have to get together and plan. Works like a charm, and saves a ton of money even without coupons, since I haven't got it together enough quite yet to start with that. Our afternoons, as you saw yesterday, have been crazy but I am prepared for them and everything gets done.
All of these thoughts, though, in the end have led me to consider my spiritual preparation. And I must admit that my lack of focus in general does leak over to this side of my life more than I care to admit. I don't have a set time to study my scriptures, and so I often just plain forget to do it. Getting up late, or not having a real schedule for the morning means that sometimes I forget to pray. And the real kicker is that it all makes me a little less patient and a little more liable to react in ways that aren't exactly Christlike.
General Conference is in two days, and I'm not really as prepared as I ought to be. I am resolved to spend the next couple days thinking of the questions I'd personally like to have answered, and just readying my spirit for the edification. I hope to come up with ways to prepare my children for this important time, and for their own spirituality for life in general.
While I don't know that I am ready to stick to a rigid schedule, I do know that I can simply do more to prepare so that I can be successful in more areas of my life.
I'm tired of failing.
I mentioned that the cold weather has come, and I am (not surprisingly) unprepared in this area, too! I have coats and gloves and hats and scarves for myself, but I do not have a good pair of boots. The only boots I own are black Italian leather with a 4 inch heel. Somehow I do not think these are going to help me at all in 250 inches of snow.
Yesterday I was contacted by a company asking for advertising on my blog. While I usually say no to these people, or ignore them altogether, I decided to do this because if enough people click through my blog and sign up to win a pair of Ugg boots, then I will also get a free pair. And goodness knows I need them.
If you'd like to help me be more prepared, click on this link and follow directions. Or you can click on the picture in my sidebar. You will have to post a picture of the contest on your own blog, but you will be entered into the monthly drawing, and all future monthly drawings for as long as you leave the picture on your site.