In my post about my New Year's Resolutions, I casually mentioned that I wouldn't be eating any sugar for 2010. And boy did all of you ever latch on to that one! What? Lara's getting organized (again)? Whatever. Yawn. But, she's not going to eat sugar? What? Is she SERIOUS? REALLY?
Made me laugh.
It also made me realize that it's hard for all of us, this sugar beast. And for me it's absolutely necessary to get rid of it. I am overly sensitive to it. When I am partiularly out of control (like, say, during the holidays), I turn into a monster. I yell for no reason. I hate my life. I have no energy. And, I gain weight like nobody's business.
Part of it is PCOS and the insulin resistance that is packaged with it. Part of it may just be the way my body reacts to sugar. I don't really know.
What I do know is that when I don't eat sugar (I have done this before several times) I am the calm and happy person I know I can be. I feel good, and I have energy. And, I drop pounds alarmingly quickly.
This time, though, it's not about the weight. While it will be nice to lose, I don't care nearly as much about that as I do the way I feel. And the way I act. I do not want my children to have a mother who loses her temper just because she couldn't control herself with the brownies. That is not fair to them. Not to mention how confusing it is for them (and me!) when I freak out about absolutely nothing.
For some reason, it's been easier this time. Maybe because it's for a more honorable reason than just getting skinny. I started weaning myself from sugar the day after Christmas. There were still so many goodies around, that it wasn't exactly easy, but my first full day off of sugar was December 30. I had a horrible migraine that night due to the good old withdrawal, but I survived. I ate a little bit of toffee on New Year's Eve, and I have stayed true to my word that I will not have sugar in 2010.
For now, I am just not eating obvious goodies. In February I will also eliminate white flour from my diet (not too difficult for me since I usually eat whole wheat anyway, but I'm not fretting about it right now). In March I will go whole hog and eliminate anything from my diet that has the words sugar or high fructose corn syrup in the ingredient list. You may say it's extreme, but it is absolutely essential for me. I promise.
Besides, once you've been off sugar for a while, you start tasting the sweeteners in everything. Like spaghetti sauce. I can't even stand how sweet it tastes once I've been off it for a while. Thank goodness for the no-sugar-added kind.
I am definitely feeling much better already. One week completely off, and two weeks of major reduction. I've lost some weight, but what's really amazing is my energy level. Remember my main New Year's Resolution? To get organized? To have a routine? It's working. I'm loving my lists. My house is cleaner than ever and I feel like the tone of our home is changing for the better.
Now, please excuse me while I go organize my spice cupboard.
(Hey! It's on the list today. I'm not that freaky, I promise!)