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Thursday, April 29, 2010

Change of Heart

I planned on coming here tonight to complain about my life.

How it's just too busy and I have sick kids and I don't feel good either and my voice students have a recital tomorrow for which I am completely unprepared and I'm fat and apathetic and I can't sing a high C# and my husband is never home and I crave carbs and even though the kitchen is an absolute disaster area all I want to do is sit around reading blogs and eating popcorn.

And that is just what I set about to do.

Then I went to get my popcorn bowl out of the cupboard, and I found a note from Chloe inside.

Dear mom, i will claen....the bath room's + bed rooms, the kichane, and scrub the walls and be kind and gentell and i will claen the play room!
and i will make the bed scrub the floors. fold the landree and i will clean the dinner for sunday room! and i will organis the droors.  and organis the shellvs.
and i promis i will not cry abote evrything i Promis! and i will be Quit whene you tell me and i will be Quickly obying and i will teach the holy Gost.
and i love you.
thee END!
love, Chloe

And I read it, and I cried.

I cried because I love that little girl so much.  And I've not been giving my best lately.  And she wants to scrub the walls and be kind and clean the dining room and every other room and even teach the Holy Ghost because she knows I haven't been so happy lately.

But really, she teaches me.

So tomorrow I won't complain.  I will clean the house with exclamation points and I will be kind and gentle and I won't cry about everything and I will be quickly obeying.

Just like Chloe.

33 comments :

  1. Made me cry. I would say it's just my hormones. . . but let's be honest, it doesn't get any sweeter than that!!

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  2. Really, truly... the sweetest thing I've read all day.

    I often wonder how I would ever learn anything if I didn't have kids around to teach me.

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  3. I've got a Chloe too. It's hard when I realize just how dialed in she is to my emotions and stress. It's a real reality check.

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  4. Awww, this made my cold, dead heart thaw a bit!

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  5. Kids definitely know how to humble us don't they? I love and also hate when my 3 year old provides insight that I'm too blind to see. It should be my job, not hers. Your little girl sounds like a lovely and tender soul! God bless your day tomorrow!!

    Gina

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  6. Oh, that almost made me cry! She is such a sweetheart. I think girls must be much more in tune with Mommy's emotions. My boys know when I'm about to lose it, but when I'm sad...sometimes they are clueless. Unless they see the actual sobs.

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  7. Oh, and Lara. coming from the queen of mom guilt...remember that we just can't be 100% all the time. give yourself that. Love you.

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  8. Awhhh.... so sweet of her.
    Moms can't always give their best.
    We can try...

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  9. I just remember that giving our best changes from day to day. SOO Don't be too hard on yourself, but Chloe came through today trying to give you support in her loving way, because she loves you so much! And so do I!

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  10. Thanks I needed that. I too am having a bad day!! I'll have a better one tomorrow.

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  11. What a sweet little girl! She really put things in perspective. I need a Chloe too.

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  12. I felt exactly the same way the other day when Rebekah prayed, "Please bless Mommy that she won't be frustrated with me. Please bless me that I won't make Mommy mad." Sorta broke my heart, but what a comfort it was to read your post. I don't feel like I'm so alone in my mothering frustrations!

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  13. What a sweetie! Our kids can't melt us down right when we need reshaping.

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  14. Talk about tender mercies. There is just no coincidence in that. And how obvious is it that you are doing so many things right when you get a note like that from your daughter? So awesome. (totally got me tearful, too)

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  15. ...and then you made us all cry.

    "I will clean the house with exclamation points...." I love it.

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  16. Wow!!!! What a beautiful blessing. THis made me think of the quote by Pres Kimball about how the Lord answers our prayers most often through other mortals near us. I love it that your sweet daughter was the answer to a prayer you didn't even know you needed and that the Lord knew you'd need this at that point and arranged it. Sparrows falling and all that. Really great post, Lara.

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  17. I love this ... there is so much we learn from our kids, usually in very unexpected ways. They are so close to the spirit!!!!

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  18. That is awesome!! Love it when kids bring us back to where we should be.

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  19. Wow. It humbles me and she's not even my daughter. (Sorry things are so hard--moving takes the best out of a gal for quite some time.)

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  20. Oh, Chloe....sweet sweet spirit in that little body.

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  21. What a sweet little girl! And what a perfect reminder of the kind of attitude we should try to have.

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  22. Made me cry, too!! It is always our children that seem to be teaching us. What blessing we receive for choosing to become parents, and it's nice when we stop and just listen. I sometimes think they have so much more to teach us than we have to teach them.

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  23. I really loved this. So sweet...

    And I wish I could clean my house with exclamation points. I think I'll be good if I can clean my house, period.

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  24. Wow! That definitely gave me warm fuzzies all over. :) (THAT is a perfect end to a hard day, isn't it?)

    I CHERISH those teaching moments from my kids! (Who doesn't?) So pure. So sweet. Filled with unconditional love. Doesn't that make the perfect teacher?

    THANKS for sharing!

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  25. Popcorn fixes a lot of things in my book too.

    What a sweet little young one you got there. Squeeze her tight and kiss her extra♥

    If it makes you feel any better...I can't sing the next C an octave higher than middle C. Never have, never will. I'm lucky to hit a B flat. Porter always told me to use my falsetto, he made me laugh!

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  26. I love that these sweet little children can teach us such important lessons!

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  27. What a sweetheart you've got! She must definitely have a sensitive little spirit. Its amazing what our children can teach us if we're paying attention, isn't it?

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  28. They really are our best teachers, aren't they? How perceptive she is. I hope you feel better soon, and have a wonderful time scrubbing the walls with your little Chloe. :)

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  29. wow...the tears are forming here also. what a sweetheart. i've been feeling a little dysfunctional around here too but have been thinking the same thing that these babies are such an amazing blessing. now if i could just focus on that for long enough not to be yelling at them all the time...

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  30. Yep, I'm cring too. So sweet.

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  31. Very sweet. I need that reminder today, too.

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  32. Ditto on the crying. what a sweet girl you have.

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