I don't post a ton of pictures of myself on my blog. There are criteria, you know. I have to look perfect, or near to it. If I don't, well then, you're not going to see that picture! But, I'm bucking up, and today I'm posting this picture, which I had Bria take while I was still in my polar bear fleece pajamas and hadn't done my hair or brushed my teeth. I purposely sat next to the unfolded laundry pile that has been on my couch for two days. Today, I am joining in Brene' Brown's Perfect Protest and protesting perfection.
When we were at the Chicago Symphony last weekend, I read the interview with the maestro (not my Maestro, but the maestro conducting in Chicago!) that was in the program. I was incredibly struck by one thing he said and I couldn't stop thinking about it. So much so that I immediately posted it on my Facebook page and have been trying to call it to mind whenever I feel the anxiety about not having the perfect house or being the perfect wife and mother.
He was asked a question about how he felt when his orchestra didn't play perfectly, and his answer went like this:
"Perfection doesn't exist. And if you try to reach perfection for the sake of perfection, you are boring."
~Riccardo MutiThe last thing I want to be is boring. So if it's boring to have the laundry folded all of the time, then I'm totally okay with leaving it for a bit. I will not let laundry affect my self-worth (has anyone noticed that I seem to have major issues with laundry???). Or anything else that I do imperfectly. I am so much more than laundry and a clean house.
As I continue to ponder perfection, I have realized that there is perfection and then there is PERFECTION. One is a spiritual gift that we aspire to in the hereafter, and one is trying to do things perfectly in this life that have absolutely no bearing on our salvation. If I can get past the perfection problem here, it will free me up to better myself in the ways that really and truly matter: To develop charity, to have a relationship with my Father in Heaven and my Savior, to improve my God-given talents, to bring joy to my life and to the lives of others as I learn to serve them.
Somehow, I don't think the perfect laundry room can help me achieve any of that.
PS Brene' Brown's wonderful book about embracing vulnerability and imperfection, The Gifts of Imperfection can be purchased on Amazon by clicking here: The Gifts of Imperfection.