I am having mixed feelings about leaving summer behind this year. It's very strange, because normally I am so excited for September to arrive, for school to start, for the first BYU football game of the season, for autumn weather...
...this year I am kind of dreading it. But only because that means that winter is close on its heels. And I'm not ready for winter! I didn't get enough summer this year!
On the other hand, I really am excited for all of the above mentioned things to happen. Something about August tends to turn me into a big old bump on a log who sits around doing nothing. The arrival of September usually pulls me right out of that and gets me off my duff and sticking to a schedule and doing things again. And this year is no different.
My new planner arrived yesterday. I'm so excited to have a brain again! And to fill it with stuff. And yes, I am aware I have a smart phone, but what I don't have is a creative phone. I think that's why I insist on the paper planner. It's pretty to look at, I can draw pictures and doodle and cross things out and journal, and I just don't think there's an app for that.
I have been working hard on our Back-to-School Feast. Joel and I have come up with a theme for the year that we feel our family needs. I've made the sign and plan to get the crowns done today or tomorrow. We have the menu ready to go. I'm excited! The day before school starts has become one of my favorite days of the year thanks to this tradition.
I've been a little nervous this year about how many students I will or won't have. I'm kind of worried I'm not going to have enough to cover the new fridge I just bought. (Oh yeah, my fridge died, and it's not like you can really live without one, so I bought a new one.) Students are trickling in, though, and I just have to trust that the Lord will take care of us, just like He always has, even though I am biting my nails a lot. Sometimes (like right now) paying tithing hurts a little, but I know that those are the times that we can see the blessings even more clearly than usual. So I'm trusting. And trying not to worry.
I have a list a mile long of things I need to accomplish this month. It's daunting, but I am excited to send my children off to school so I can be productive again. Does that sound awful? I do love being with my children, no question about it, but I think I'm ready for them to go to school, for a more rigid schedule, and for the strange power the television set holds over them to be vanquished. Even if that means I have to get up at the crack of dawn to make peanut butter sandwiches...
I guess I'm glad about September being here, after all. Just as long as winter can wait until after Thanksgiving this year.