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Monday, June 04, 2012

It's Official: I Really Am Falling Apart!

About five years ago, I worried I was falling apart. I found myself with thyroid issues, PCOS, PMS, plantar fasciitis, and carpal tunnel syndrome. it hurt to walk, it hurt to do anything with my right hand, I was exhausted and irritable, and I felt like killing the whole world. OK, so maybe I only wanted to kill people about one day a month, but I was still in pretty bad shape.

Now, I really don't like going to doctors. I avoid it like the plague. I would rather suffer through an illness than go get a prescription. So, that summer five years ago, I did a lot of Internet research on all of my issues, and saw a doctor for the thyroid and hormone problems (but only because my mother made me). I cured my carpal tunnel by wearing a wrist brace, limiting computer use, and taking Omega 3 supplements. I cured my plantar fasciitis by wearing high heeled shoes as often as possible and doing some good stretches. Seriously, the fasciitis doesn't bother me at all anymore and the carpal tunnel only flares occasionally.

With the help of a doctor I started to get the other stuff under control, and while I haven't always felt wonderful, I felt pretty good.

Until a couple months ago. Now I'm just falling apart all over again, only it's so much worse this time!

I don't even know where to begin, and this time I've had to actually see doctors in the plural ugh

First, my thyroid started really acting up. When I realized that the thing was beginning to take over my entire neck, I headed to see my endocrinologist. He verified that it was indeed pretty big, but I wasn't going to win any awards for it or anything. At least THAT was good news! As it turns out, I have Hashimoto's, which is an auto-immune disorder in which the body attacks the thyroid. My doctor off-handedly mentioned that I might want to go gluten-free because gluten intolerance is often linked with Hashimoto's.

So, I went home to do my customary research on the Internet and, due to all the information I found, went gluten-free right then and there. Within one week my thyroid was back to normal size. That made me a believer and I haven't looked back, even though that's going to mean no pumpkin bars or pumpkin cookies for me ever again. (Just kidding, there's always GF flour)

But now my foot has been having some major issues. And it's not plantar fasciitis, either. It's something totally different and a million times more painful. It flares up every now and again, and this last flare up has lasted nearly a week and has been absolutely excruciating. My gym going has ground to a halt. I hobble around the house trying to do a bit of vacuuming or let the dog out. Mostly, I just lie around surfing the web or reading whilst trying to ignore my throbbing foot.

After some middle-of-the-night research, while up with a sick puppy ( baby had a violently adverse reaction to her first dosage of heart worm medication )(she is falling apart with me), I determined I must have gout, but in my heel. And then I proceeded to freak out. I finally went to see my podiatrist today, and he disagreed. He feels I have Achilles tendinitis. He gave me a shot, which took my pain from about a level 8 to maybe a 6, and I will be returning often for some therapy for a while. I just hope I can walk again by the time the opera opens in two weeks! I also hope I don't gain forty pounds because I'm no longer exercising.

Things were looking up, though! Sure, it still hurt quite a bit, but I was beginning to believe I wasn't actually falling apart, or that at least I was fixable.

But all of those hopes were completely dashed to (literal!) pieces when one of my molars broke in half during dinner tonight.

I'm just waiting for my head to fall off next.

Please excuse the myriad typos in this post, and possibly even the choppy train of thought. I wrote this while wincing in pain, lying in bed, on the iPad, which isn't super blogging friendly.


  1. Yuck, Lara, I'm so sorry. That's awful. At least your kids are going to be off school soon so they can wait on you hand and foot, right? (Bad pun totally intended...)

  2. Awww....I'm so sorry! I'm sure you'll be fine when the opera opens. If it helps, my teeth are a disaster - so much so, I don't want to go to the dentist to hear it from them.

  3. I'm grimacing for you, and with you. My mom has been insisting that I meet my new PCP, and I kept putting it off - "I'll do it when school starts and all four kids are in school"

    Easier to schedule, you know.

    Except my knee went out, and it's pretty bad. Because I've never met my PCP, it's taking me awhile to get in - next Monday is when I finally get in.

    In the meantime - my ear is starting to flare up. I just heat up my nightly hot water bottle to rest on it.

    Over 40 isn't for wimps. Hang in there!!!!!

  4. Huh, I was totally guessing gout as I was reading this.
    Did he check your uric acid levels? Podiatrists aren't going to guess it's gout, because they don't DO gout, that'd be your internal medicine guy.
    I'm sorry though. Is this what happens when you're done having kids? You fall apart?

  5. Okay, everyone, when it oomes to your endocrine system, DO NOT put it off, you are messing with alot of future problems, serious ones.
    When it comes to functioning physically, like walking, wrists etc etc. Don't put it off.
    This is just like not doing anything about a hole in the wall, it only gets worse and will cost you more money in the long run! Hence, I bug Lara. This time she did it quickly, proud of you.

  6. It seems summer is the season for repairs. You are not ALONE. I've struggled in many of the same ways; so confused by my body. (I'm now on my third tooth implant.) Pain stinks. Do whatever you can to eliminate it, even if it means seeing more (or different) doctors or health specialists. I've made a promise to myself to address some of those other nagging problems this summer, that I have been trying to ignore. Let's make a pact...

  7. OMG Lara I am so sorry. If it makes you feel any better... You are not alone! I have been feeling like I am falling apart for a few months now. Everyday has been something new. I hate getting old! Take care of yourself. I hope you get feeling better very soon and figure out how to manage all that is going on. Hang in there!

  8. I've had a couple spells in my life where I was (or felt like I was) falling apart. There's nothing worse than not knowing what's going on. At least with a diagnosis you can plan a treatment and get a sense of how to recover or deal with it. My heart goes out to you. Just remember, "This too shall pass."

  9. OK this is me Margie Jo. Don't know why my husband is popping up? Really if there is anything I can do let me know. I'll be keeping you my prayers.

  10. I feel sooo bad I wish you would have told me. All you have going on and to top off you have a crazy messy bunny to take care of. Yuck! I think I do know how you feel. There has been many times in my life I feel like I'm falling apart too. It is difficult having an autoimmune disease, they just do weird things to your poor body for no reason at all. I agree with Hillary and having your uric acid level checked and seeing your primary care provider. Hope things start going in a better direction for you. Maybe you need to rest and relax to give your body a rest. Give me a call if I can do anything. Take the kids for awhile? Fix dinner? Remember the Lord doesn't give us more than we can handle. You just happen to be stronger than the rest of us!

  11. I have PF, and I have never heard of wearing high heels as a cure...tell me about that. I had the achillies tendonits a few summers ago....hurt like the dickens. Come to find out a new tennis shoe I'd bought was pinching the heel every time I wore it. So, different shoes.

  12. Oh Lara!! No FAIR! I hate that you're having to go through this. I'm going through some health issues myself right now, and though I'll not claim knowing exactly what you're feeling, I can promise you that my heart goes out to you! Hang in there!

  13. Paul says to look on the bright side. You can get a crown on your tooth and become royalty!

    Hope next week is better. It's no fun feeling like you're falling apart. And, why did apart almost auto correct to AARP? Hmmmm...

  14. Sorry to read of the painful ailments, no fun at all! I have to put a word in for swimming for exercise though. No impact, great aerobics and I'm sure the Tech pool has lap swim hours. I swim for exercise and share the pool with people in their 20's through their 80's, such long lasting benefits both mentally and physically.

  15. ewww, i hate that you have been having painful things to deal with. glad they are figuring it out though. hope you get to feeling in tip top shape soon! teeth are suppose to stay in... that darn molar. that's my nightmare a lot of times - my teeth falling out when i smile for a picture. haha. hang in there my friend.

  16. Ugh!! I'm so sorry Lara! That is a lot to handle all at the same time! You are so strong! I would have fallen apart emotionally right along with the physical stuff!