It's been a week.
Mostly unremarkable, but I am going into hibernation mode. I do it every winter and the snows came fast and furious this year and I am already starting to fall apart.
Every morning when my alarm goes off at 5:45 am, I want to cry. Sometimes I actually do. Getting myself to work by 9:00 am is a feat of superhuman proportions. I have no desire to clean, to read, to blog, to sing.
Unfortunately, my desire to eat is stronger than ever.
Today we took a nap on our king-sized bed. ALL FIVE OF OF US. Including the dog. ALL SIX OF US. We all want to hibernate!
I am looking forward to this week, though. It's Thanksgiving, and I only have to work a teeny-tiny bit tomorrow and then I have a lot of work to do to get ready for Thursday. And after that, it's Christmas decorating time! I can't be hibernating for that, my most favorite time of the year.
On Saturday night, Chloe redeemed her 11-month-old Christmas coupon for a date with Mom & Dad. It ended up being a date with just Mom, but I took her to see Mockingjay, which she has been dying to see (she gobbled up those books in a couple days this summer, and then I let her see the first two movies on DVD).
One line from the book/movie really stuck with me this time.
"It takes ten times as long to put yourself together as it does to fall apart." (Finnick Odair)
Wow, right? Or maybe all of you are just better at this not falling apart thing than I am, so this quote isn't hitting you as hard as it hit me. I haven't stopped thinking about it since Saturday night.
I've spent a lot of time this past year trying to put myself back together after letting myself fall apart again and again. It's tough work, and it really does take ten times longer. This last couple days I've been really mulling it over in my head and trying harder to just keep it together instead of falling apart.
It means not crying when my alarm goes off. It means getting my butt out of bed, putting one foot in front of the other and pushing through, even when the snow and the cold are enough to send me into hibernation until May.
It also means stepping back a little from the less important (blog) and working hard to concentrate on the most important (family) while still doing the more important (going to work at 9 am).
And it means not freaking out when the Sunday photo falls apart before you get a really good shot. It's all part of life. And I just wasn't willing to take ten times as long to get them to sit back down and smile. Falling apart is okay sometimes.
Someday I'll learn to strike a balance! For now, I'll remember that it just isn't worth it to let myself fall apart.
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