This is what we woke up to this morning. May I remind you that it is April 4? And yes, I am aware that this is happening all over the country, but that doesn’t mean I have to like it. We’re coming up on 6 months of winter and I am so ready to get my personality back. This has been a difficult winter for me as far as my mental health goes.
FYI: I did not convert this picture to Black and White. What you are looking at is full color. Sometimes I feel like my world is Black and White, and shades of Grey. I haven’t seen my lawn in ages and the sky is generally overcast (although spring has been coming through with some lovely blue skies the past few weeks).
All that said, I do have to admit that it’s quite beautiful to look at, as much as I look forward to color.
Speaking of my mental health, even though this year has been my most difficult bout with SAD yet, I feel like I am finally ready to be healthy—physically healthy, and that has definitely helped my mental health. On the days that I go to the gym and run, I feel so much better. Changing my diet has improved my ability to deal with the stresses life brings. I am calmer when dealing with my children, even though I still feel like I am not myself.
General Conference this past weekend was wonderful, too. Wonderful for my spiritual health, if somewhat painful as I examined my failings and the things I desperately need to improve upon. Elder Scott’s talk was particularly poignant for me and I admit to bawling through the majority of it.
I am so extremely blessed to have a husband as wonderful as mine: who totally supports me and loves me despite my many struggles. I take him for granted too often. I cried both because of my gratitude for him, and because I am nothing like the wife Elder Scott describes in his Janine, and yet he loves me so much anyway. Oh how I long to be the kind of wife who “with grace and devotion live[s] with full feminine splendor of her righteous womanhood!“
I’m working on it.